I've been doing so horrible... I thought hanging out with my friends would stop me from binging but instead it caused me to :/ We made a bonfire and made smores and I ate so many..........
I can't stop binging, and I hate that I know I should stop, but I can't stop myself. My lack of control makes me feel so worthless and I've been crying for the past few days.
I asked my boyfriend to help me find somewhere I can get help when he comes back to where I live, which is in 2 months.
He tells me his dad can help me, since he has a masters degree in psychology. I told him why would I want his dad to help me when I should be trying to impress him. My boyfriend doesn't understand. It's so much easier being able to talk to someone I don't know and someone I don't have to make any impressions on.
It's so stressing when the only person you can tell doesn't understand... All he tells me is that I should run or exercise. I already KNOW I should but I just don't want to. So I feel as if he's telling me it's MY fault. That everything is my fault. I know it is though. I know.
I feel like i'm going to explode soon. There's just so much feelings I can hold back at once, and lately It's getting worse as I keep doing worse.