I wish I could live alone while Im trying to loose weight... My family isn't really the healthy type so there's always snack foods. But I the same time I hate blaming my family when its my fault I can't eat right.
I hate how its so hard to choose vegetables over snacks. It makes me so frustrated and I try to purge but I probably can't even get 1/8 out without feeling sick.
It kills me. The thought that it's all my fault. I can't blame the food or the people who produce it. I can't blame my family who are mentally healthy when it comes to eating. I can't blame my body for not having a proper digestive system. Because in the end, it's all because of me. Because I can't put down the bag of chips, because I can't control myself, because I don't exercise, because i'm fucking lazy and can't stay away from food. I'm so tired of myself.
uuuuuuugh its so frustrating, my body itches from within.
I guess I'll hit up the gym and stay in the sauna forever... hahhah jk about the sauna part :)
Hope everyone else isn't feeling as poopoo as i am.