Sunday, April 14, 2013

Should I be happy?

I'm sure you all understand, most of us have the lowest self esteem possible.
I've been so anxious, nervous and about my boyfriend that I've been doing long distance with because he's at a prom after party and I don't know anyone. I feel like he's been losing interest in me. My hands shake, I sometimes feel like my body is rocking back and forth from an earthquake but there is no earthquake, and i don't have an appetite. I don't even want to put anything in my mouth. My stomach is growling but i dont care. This is what I've always wanted but I feel empty, mentally and emotionally.


  1. I'm so sorry sweetie. I really am. I have similar worries about my boyfriend. The way he's so upbeat and positive and I'm so downhearted and negative... Sigh... I often worry he'll realize his mistake in being with me and leave <3 I know that's easier said than done, but just try to take a day to relax... Take a warm bath with candles. Paint your nails. Show yourself that you ARE beautiful and worth holding onto. Because you are.
    Much love darling <3 Take care <3

  2. I have been with my boyfriend for quite a while and I still have these worries, every day. I'm sorry to hear you're going through the same thing. Thinking of you sweetie <3
    Alice xx

  3. I had these worries a lot with my bf in the beginning of our relationship- and we spent like five hours together every day. So i definitely know where you're coming from. I think what really helped me was just talking it out with him every once in a while to let him soothe my fears. If he's really not interested then you won't have to drag out your misery, and if he is interested then you'll feel much better.
    Don't let it bring you down :(