Every girl around me is just so beautiful. I can't look at a girl without thinking what my boyfriend thinks of her or how bad I feel that he's going out with me when he could be with beautiful girls all around him. Even with celebrities. I just want to be able to talk with him about these beautiful girls. Just be like," Oh she's pretty!" and not get jealous. I try so hard. Then I break-down internally and get mad at myself for not being able to accept that other girls will be prettier and skinnier.
On a good note, my flight back home got canceled. The plane I was supposed to ride was the boeing 787! What are the odds haha So I get to stay with my boyfriend for another month.